Moral and Creation

Over the 17 years of my life, there are just about two things that matter more than anything on this unhealthy and unholy earth, that make the difference to just about anything for surviving just about everything :

Money, and control

These two things are the very root to our failure as a humanity, and if you don't see a failure, then you obviously cannot see the big picture pretty well. What's more intimidating is that when these two words are actually not equaled together, you can incorporate money with a good ability of control. And how you can handle this ability of control, I've thought up through my own two things that make my world work for myself:

Moral, and creation

Both of these things have gotten me far in life, because it overall concurs with what makes me a better person. Moral, because a healthy conscience and morality makes the person, as does personality, so basically:

"morality = personality = character = survival"

Next to morality, another thing that can make someone is his/her ability to create; if you can't find the solution around you or through you, make it. This spurs the imagination, and imagination is another key to survival: making a life of your own; uniqueness. Incorporating that creation with morality, I think I'm in a good spot so far.

And thinking about all this now, having morality and creation can really make the difference this year so far. These past few months, things have really gone ape-shit with people in my school. And when I say 'ape-shit', I don't mean it to be a bad and evil thing, but a thoughtless paradox that nobody can get through, especially the autumn of 2010 so far.

Alot of my friends, in high school, most of them not even on their last year of high school, are getting married, getting prego, even considering getting implants. The start of October, engagement; just last night, engagement; in a few weeks, someone I hardly know is gonna be a father, at the age of 17; his little brothers, uncles; high schoolers, Seniors, just some 5 months of graduating and getting a high school diploma, and dropping out; rats and hypocrites every next day, over and over... if you know who you are in this post, then disregard this post, and understand that it is not I that is angry at you... but it is I who is completely confused, because all I can think to myself is whether ev-ry-bo-dy is going insane!

I mean, yeah, it's fucking high school, but still, is there no self-respect? Anymore? Anywhere at anytime at anyplace? There is almost no moral, when all that seems to matter is commercialism and propaganda. And the worst part? Oh yeah, the worst part: as far as it seems, we're not learning! Years of evolution and revolution, and here we are, still pathetic, still unprofessional, still lustful, and still angry.

Not just high school, dammit, but everywhere I look! The television, Exhibit A, going outside in the city, Exhibit B, and quite possibly, you, Exhibit C. Where's the fucking conscience! Will there ever be moral anymore? Can I sit here, and look around me, and see any good anymore? It's suicidal, at times, but what other option can I conjure? Fighting won't get you anywhere, because probably nobody will listen. And those who want to listen will make a cult, clique, and its people like me that meet with these cults either on terrible blogs like this one, or we just keep it in our heads for no one to fully understand... or beatniks and hipsters at Starbucks, who knows.

Nobody wants to hear what you have to say, because we probably got more important things to do, and what you say doesn't matter anyway because it won't make a difference to anyone anytime soon. And because of that, there is that itch within people like me to just roll with the punch, somewhat give up, give in, give down, and  probably end up in the majority without knowing it. But then it'd be another statistic, the zombie statistic.

I can't express my inner thoughts to many people because they probably get it out of context and won't understand, and I don't talk to many people about my thoughts on my blog, because I'll just get laughed at for not having a life. I'm surprised I've made it this far without putting a watergun to my nostril. Now, am I calling myself smart? No. Am I calling myself alot better than you, the reader? Absolutely not; I'm keeping my morality. But am I telling you what you may or may not see? I'm sure attempting it, because someone has to, and someone has to know and listen.

You know that saying, "you can't have a good without a bad"? It can't be reversed to say "You can't have a bad without a good." Reverse the statement, and you'll just end up having the bad overpower the good with whatever power the bad has. That's as simple as I can make it. You can't have a good without a bad, then you'll just have a bad.

The good will go bad, because those two things I've noticed... money and control... however much denial you're gonna make, those two things will eventually take over, either temporarily or completely, and it'll be another statistic. This bad is everywhere, and its most common terms are now "greed" and "corruption"... "money" and "control"... and they are unavoidable wherever you turn, and the amateur and narrow will eventually succumb to it, until it becomes too much that you either die, die on the inside, or go to a rehab of some sort, somewhere.

Another thing to consider: those few who have managed to overcome all that I have posted, and have lived a good life for themselves and others... will too be brought down by the majority group: everyone else, at some point in your lives. Our world has somehow become those two political terms: the majority and minority. The majority: everyone else, and the minority, not everyone else. These few, the minority, like the cults, will more than likely live isolated; work, eat, sleep, and probably be isolated.

Here's my message to those who know are a part of the majority: you're not convincing anyone. Don't toy with people like me to think it could work. I think I know the most of the truth, and either way, I'll just sit or stand here, and laugh, knowing who is the more lost or overly-pathetic. FIND your morality, balance it, and spread it like fire; if you want to make the difference, CREATE that difference.

- Ant